Weigh In!

I weighed in at 207 on the dot this morning.  I'm feeling MUCH better and can tell a huge difference in my collar bones.  The difference between 212ish and 207 is amazing. I swear my collor bones pop out more and are much more noticeable and I LOVE IT!! 

SO, 7.1 pounds until I hit ONEDERLAND and this time I'm doing it y'all!!  I'm gonna get there!!!

I also went out today and bought this hot little dress from the Gap, I absolytely love it.  Size XL, probably could have gone with a Large but it would have been too short.

Anyway, I'll leave you with a picture!  Sorry for the crappy photography skills!

Have a great weekend!

Craving Movement!

Good morning bloggers!  I'm sitting here getting in big glass of water before I eat breakfast!  I went out for Mexican last night and OKAY, you got me, I DID eat about 12 chips.  But, I was controlled and calm while eating them! hahaha.  I did great yesterday, stayed within calories and I'm slowly seeing the scale go down...that's a great thing! 

I'm struggling with exercise.  I have horrible seasonal allergies and right now they are awful!  I came home from my walk on Tuesday and then wheezed the rest of the day.  Adding in exercise at the moment just isn't an option.  I can go for walks as long as they aren't too fast because when I get hot I'll cough and that just doesn't mix with exercise.  I'm sad and SO ready to get over this.  I can literally feel my body craving some movement! 

Well, it's looking like egg whites and an english muffin for this gal! 

Getting Back on Track!

I'm feeling great!  Yesterday I counted calories, drank my water and went for a walk.

GASP!  That is probably the first time I've done all those things in about a month or so!  It felt fantastic! 

Tonight, I'm going out with a friend for dinner.  Of course, it's Mexican.   I've already decided on the salad I'll have and I'm skipping the chips and using salsa as my dressing.  No question about it, I won't be eating those chips!

I hope all my blog friends are doing well!  I'm trying to get back into the swing of things! :)

53 Days

Until my sister's wedding.

Christmas is over, Valentine's Day is over, Easter is over, my birthday is over...I can't really think of anymore EXCUSES.  I'm ready to get on and move forward with my weight loss!

I'm back to eating right as of today.  And, when my horrible case of coughing from allergies is better I'll start back with exercising (all I can do right now is walk). 

My weight is a steady 210.0.  I'm up 5lbs from my lowest.  To basically STOP everything right for a couple of months I'm okay with that.  I'm just READY to get under 200.  I'm done with 210.  I'm completely FINISHED with being lazy.  I'm not comfortable anymore.  That wore off quick!  My 16's are starting to get tight and that was my wake up call.  I REFUSE to go back into an 18 jean and I will be that FAST if I don't get started back! 

So, I'm BACK and I've missed each one of you.  I haven't been reading because I had become jealous of everyone elses success!!  Sad, but true.  It only made me feel bad about myself. So, I plan on catching up on blogs tonight.  I doubt I'll get to read over everything I've missed but I'm here and you'll be seeing my comments!

I truly hope everyone is doing great.  Sometimes in this weight loss world we just need a break. At least for me, I really needed it.  I know understand I'm not where I want to be and that comfortable really wears off fast when you are still overweight.

So, I have 53 days until the wedding.

I have 53 days to get under 200lbs.

I may or may not get there, but I'm making myself a promise to try my hardest!!! :)

Thanks for you support!!

Too Comfortable?

I’m sitting here trying to find the words to write.  Trying to find a way to write what I really need to tell you guys. 

I guess I’ll start with the truth.

I’ve become comfortable.  I used to be an almost 300 pound (295) lazy woman.  Over the past  14ish months I’ve become a COMPLETELY different person.  I’m active.  I chose wiser options.  I shop in regular departments.  I exercise.  I drink a lot of water.  I’m more social.  I’m less afraid. 

BUT, it all just hit me that I’ve become too comfortable in my own skin.

In a bad, bad way.

I’ve become so comfortable with this smaller version of myself that I’ve let myself slip back into old habits, etc.  I’ve started to exercise less, completely stopped tracking and I drink less and less water each day.

This would probably be fine if I didn’t want to lose more weight…but, I do.  I have about 25ish more pounds to go.

I’m maintaining my weight loss but I’m not losing.

I have more to lose. 

I know exactly HOW to get there but I’m not sure if I want to “get there” because I feel so good where I’m at.  Does this make sense?  I might be 209ish (lowest was 205) but I’m astonishingly different from the girl at 295.  I do life differently.  I like it much better.  I’ve got to somehow convince myself that I might be healthy at 205, but I’m not where I want to be.  I might be comfortable, but..deep, deep down,  I know I’m not where I want to be.

I’ve been absent from blogland, and I’ll be honest in saying that it has been great.  I love all of you, but right now I guess I’m doing this journey on my own.

I’m just trying to find what works for me.

The main point is this:  I love myself but know that I need to be doing a better job.  And, it’s hard when you get comfortable because kicking it up a few notches is just not what I want to do right now.

COME BACK!!

Dear Blog Readers,

Please, come back to me!  I've been a VERY bad blogger lately and haven't been an ounce of inspiration to anyone, including myself!!  This girl is back on track and I'd love to have you back!! 

Here are some things going on in my life:

1.  I weighed in at 210.2 pounds this morning.  Up 5.2 pounds from my lowest.
2.  I have 85 days to get to 199.9 pounds.  (just in time for my sisters wedding)
And just to prove it, here is a picture!

3.  I've made calenders to help me reach my goals.
4.  I'm going to be hardcore (again) about water, calories (1400-1600), and exercising (5 days a week).
5.  Stay tuned for my next weigh in on 3/16.


I'm going to catch up on all other blogs really soon!  I've been a commenting slacker..but I'm BACK!!

Love,
Meghan

I'll NEVER Give Up!

Over the past few weeks I've been FLAT OUT STRUGGLING!  My enthusiasm has been in waves and my motivation is lacking...and then...

I went shopping.

Shopping is really fun now.  I can wear size at 16 most places and that makes me extremely happy.

I tried on a dress at Loft that was a size 14 and it freaking ZIPPED UP.  I was too tight but it zipped.  I want that dress to fit SO bad.  The things I'm doing right now are NOT going to get me there.

THIS MUST STOP.  This rut, this lack of motivation, this laziness, these bad food choices, these EXCUSES, MUST STOP!

So, tonight, I printed three calendars..one for March, April and May.  I have exactly 85 days to get to 199.9 pounds.  I WILL get there by May 25th.  I want to go back to everything I did in the beginning of weight loss.  Here are the things that got me there:

1.  100 oz or more of water.
2.  Planned out meals.
3.  1500 calories.
4.  Prayer and bible study.
5.  Working out 5 days a week.
6.  Getting 10,000 or more steps in a day.

So, there is what I've done to lose 90 (a little less now) pounds.

I'll be weighing in tomorrow and writing that weight down. 

I'm moving on from this RUT, this CRAP mode that I've been in!

I NEVER want to go back to the 295 pound Meghan, EVER!!!!!!!!

I'm ready to move on and get with it!!!!